lies

ever feel like relationships you thought were real were based on lies... things you felt were fabricated by the other person... I don't know what to believe.
how do I trust again...

MONQ

So I just got my box set of MONQ in the mail today.  Since I got an awesome labor day deal, I figured I would get them all and try them out.  So far, I love it.  The taste that it leaves in the mouth is so pleasant!  I will be trying it out this week to see how they affect me, but so far it is quite a great experience.

If you'd like a code for MONQ, let me know!  But here's the link: https://monq.com?rfsn=323301.22a6d

If you haven’t heard of MONQ yet, you will soon.  It is the newest, most innovative, and coolest aromatherapy device out there. Using a small portable device, you can experience aromatherapy variety of effects anywhere. When you use it, it lights up, letting you know that it is active. And you simply breathe in Therapeutic Air that your MONQ diffuses. It comes in 7 blends, so you can swap off depending upon your mood, with blends such as Happy, Zen and Sleepy!

I struggle with racing thoughts, with rumination, with depression.  I think that a lot of people deal with mental issues, some more profound than others, some more visible or noticeable than others.  I can keep a pretty good face on to make it seem like I am a generally happy person.  Today, I had to keep doing relaxing breathes, deep breathing, to keep myself calm.  Things affect me deeply, and I worry about things.  I worry like it's my job to worry.  I go through things in my head like it is a puzzle, looking for the missing pieces and trying to reassemble it over and over again.  Do other people experience this?  Am I that unique in my mental illness?  It's like when you have a cut on your lip, or on your roof of your mouth and you can't help but keep licking it, over and over again, expecting it to heal that way, almost enjoying the pain but crying at the same time.  I look for ways to release it, make it better in my head, so that I don't overreact to life, or cry, or just increase my ability to cope with things.  Deep breathing.  Writing.  Praying. Scriptures.  I just purchased MONQ and I am curious to see how that will work with my depression, racing thoughts, touch of anxiety.  I have tried other herbal supplements as well.  SAM-e has helped, along with HTP-5 to kind of help me relax at night and help me sleep.  sleeping is the worst, that is when everything that I might have been suppressing comes to the surface and my mind does not shut off.
I am really excited to try MONQ and see how the different mixes help with different situations.  Hopefully the aromatherapy can help.